rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, August 20, 2007
-6:19 PM
i know i can't go on like this!
OMG what's happening to me! why me! but i'm...it's like i'm feeding off everyone's suffering and it's just adding up.Like every thread of my life is coming loose! i cant say 'why me' it's too selfish. But i cant help it, everything i thought was forever is disappearing! There's really no such thing as forever, things are just coming undone. i cant list out the problems i'm sure, and most are out of my control. But just to fix those that are in my control,it seems like a dream it's so...hard. My pillar of strength is gone and i have to be her's.
How can i do this, the least i could do is of course be a best friend, but i'm just not good at that, and i just feel so helpless, so useless. I really cant, i know, it's a sure fact, things WILL get better. But it's sure like hell waiting for it to get better. I know i shouldnt be the one to complain, what's my pain compared to her's but i feel so small. Like i just cant contain and up hold all these responsiblities, i think my brain's about to burst at the seems! i cant, and i cant tell her, she's already enduring more than me how could i worsen her load? what kind of friend would i be? But what kind of friend am i now?!i;m the worst kind of human being. It's like my little world was so fragile, just waiting for a disaster, and here it is. and everyone's just running around in circles screaming,how? how? i just cant do ANYTHING everything's just out of it. and i cant do anything about it.i dont know.
